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sianned.
today ms koh had a weird analogy about a potato. say ur pride is a potato which u carry arnd all the time in ur pocket. (she was talking about hitler) so hitler was bullied and all since young by the jews. and his potato grew. end up he ate his rotten potato and died(he killed himself). haha.
in my context it'd be more of.
being pissed with someone. then its like carrying a potato. and whatever that person says or does, it annoys you. perfect conditions for a rotting potato. so it rots. until it stinks like shit.
isnt it alot better to just. not get pissed with a person? i cant stand it la. when ur pissed with someone, you'll dao that person. and naturally it'll affect the ppl arnd u as well. daoing very fun meh? sure, if u cant be bothered and dao, it wont take much effort. but if ur angry w a person and dao, isnt it very uncomfortable? carrying a burden with you 24/7.
daoing is energy consuming. see person u dont like, avoid. to the extent whr u go out of ur way to avoid, eg. get out of the queue if tt person is behind u etc. i hvnt been that pissed or daoed like that in a while. dont want to either. its so tiring, no? makes me wonder how i daoed ziyan for a whole year. ohwell. i cant even get pissed for one night now can. (looks at zhenping and ziyan) and if i do smth tt i know has/will upset some other person. i cant sleep. literally. i didnt that night:\ and i couldnt concentrate on anything the next day either.
sorry.
essentially, the only one who gets affected is the person her/himself. cos she's the one who's carrying that burden all arnd and daoing. sure, its a bit. weird for the person being daoed, but its like. she wanna dao, dao. not my fault, esp if i didnt do anything. i dont see why i should dao her back. its such a waste of energy. by ziyan's logic: better one person upset than two. heh. besides. why should i carry a burden which the other person conjured? doesnt make sense to me.
chinese - watched some debate thing about whether singaporeans are happy anot. one thing id like to ask though: why are ppl so obsessed with money? they're like. got money happy alr. is money that impt?
personally, i think id be happy if like. my emotional needs are met. wouldnt you feel the most satisfied then? i kinda think id be happiest when im out with friends to destress. not in town; the pressure is on you to behave well and all. i think id like somewhr whr we could sit and chat about random stuff. talk about in depth stuff.
isnt that like. most enjoyable? more so than counting money anyway. okay thats MY pov.
i think sentosa would be a nice place to hang arnd w friends. lying on an empty beach at night, after a bbq, with friends. wouldnt u feel relaxed and at peace with the world? of course, thats provided exams and all are over. haha. its so.... i dunno. id prob feel happiest then. thats one of the things that i think would make me happy la:) okay set ar? set:D
its the simple things in life that makes one(okay, me) happy. no? well how else do you think ppl in third world countries are happier than those in first world countries? they might be poor in terms of money, but in terms of emotional riches- you just cant compare.
really the simplest things. like seeing a baby smile. it really lights up ur heart la. i remb seeing my sister smile when she was young. so innocent can. if i become a paediatrician(i suspect there's sth wrong with the spelling), seeing the sick babies recover and go home, well, that would make me quite happy too. its a wonder what smiles can do to your life eh.
money cant buy happiness loh. sure, there ARE ppl who are rich and happy. but id rather have an average lifestyle and be really really happy.
i want sentosa. i think im pinning way too high hopes on sentosa. if i go thr, and like. its not fun or what. id be damn disappointed can. ohwell.
in conclusion, yeah i think id be happiest if my emotional needs are satisfied. the blissful feeling of knowing ur surrounded by friends you love and who love you back. friends with whom u can share anything under the sun, and who wont leave u behind to die.
(eh ziyan zhenping, u wont right? =X dont scare me)
okay. love you peeps.
i have decided to be less pissed over blogger's cutting of my post. this one is significantly shorter than the one i lost. no thanks to dear blogger. BAH.
good luck to those ppl taking retest tmr, and for the essay:\ what if i fail?! oh no.
get well soon ziyan! love ya <3333
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